Hormones Kick
hey guys,
I'm back.
These 2 weeks are extra stressful for me. My
hormones are not coping well with me as I started to be more grumpy-ier. Always
throwing tantrums @ my boyfriend and somehow feeling very bad about it
but deno is always deno aite. Today I’m a
cheerful person, the next day I’ll be like ‘don’t talk to me’ mood and I
got sudden craving too. I want burger, ice-cream, secret recipe’s cake, dominoes,
chicken chop, iced milo and etc. #forsureimnotpregnant
I’m one of the committee for Recom and Marey
Carnival event this weekend and I can expect that it would be stressful as
Aisar asked me to be one of the mentor for new member to handle Recom’s booth
as it is Club’s day on the same day and Faris want Ain and me to be the
volunteer at Takraw’s game. Life is great for me this month.
Today I’m a bit under the weather. Headache,
runny nose, nausea, back ache and etc you name it. I just feel frustrated with
this condition and already throwing tantrums @ my boyfriend for 178 times this
month. I know he didn’t deserve this kind of treat but I can’t fight my
hormone. This anger got the best of me as I started to push everyone away and realized
that what I did is so wrong on so many level. Yup, my brain started functioning
when the damage is done.
It’s been 2 days that I felt like I want to lay
in my bed all day, feeling lazy to eat and even go outside. I only go out when
I’ve to go to classes. Luckily my boyfriend is so thoughtful although I've said for 200th times that I don’t want to eat or meet him yet he still making
sure I’ve food to eat that he’ll wait @ the gate for me and when he saw me, he’ll
always put his smile faces at me although the pahit getir that I’d gave to him.
Hahaha okay I appreciate that effort tho. I already told him that don’t even
try to understand me as he’ll be depressed about it but he did anyway. So guys,
that’s the answer why zarul had to go to class with eye bag and if you take a close
look in his mind, it would be a mess in there.
So yesterday we’d a meeting for those who stays
in hostel and that one specified girl yeah,, that one which zarul already
clarified to me that she doesn’t important for both of us, she sits behind our
row. So, I was like okay, why would I care about her and I continue minding my business
and later that night I saw her tweet that says she’s so annoyed seeing this one
person. I don’t get offended easily guys but this one. My head is on fire
already. I don’t know why I need to write about this but I do think I need
because I can’t get it out from my head. I was like, c’mon, you can do better
than this. Haishhh, I hope I got the strength to level up my inner bitch inside
me but I choose to be kind because my mom is not raising her kid as weak person. *sudden round light appears on my head*.
So now it’s 12.30pm, I got class at 2pm which is
diesel engine subject. Had to wear uniform ugh. I’m gonna tidy my room and ease
myself. I don’t to stress myself as it would be bad for me.
Till next time.