x_ff

I feel like I ain't special enough in someone's life. 

Now what? After all these thimgs that someone ever do in your life.. it ain't enough? 

Honestly, I just want to be 'that' person. 

That person that she/he will contact when they can't sleep at 3am.

That person that she/he shared their problems.

That person who always had people listened to them passionly and not only say 'then?' while their eyes locked on their screen's phone.

And that person will never be me.

She/ he find another girl/guy instead.

And then, the fingers will always point at me.

I'm the one who didn't put too much efforts.

I'm the one who didn't care enough.

I'm the one who play the victim.

The problems came from me.

The moment when you decided to hide what  you've been doing. That's the moment I can feel that I might losing that person soon. 

Today,

I feel nothing.

Reminding myself about what I wrote 4 months ago,

   ' you'll fall hard'

hahah what goes around comes around right deanna?

I've been knowing all this for a long time.

hahah It's hard to be me.

Always seeing things that I don't want to see/face in this life.

Girls,

they always knew what you did, we just keeping it silent. Keeping the stuff inside our heart. Let it consumes ourself. And then we cried every night hoping the next morning the bad memories will gone.

you're my sweetest downfall.

I love you first.