Great Date


Currently, I'm living my best life because my boyfriend lend me his laptop (idk for how many days). It feels great to update my blog using laptop which doesn't hang every 10 minutes when I hit the space bar. Don' get me wrong, I still grateful to have my netbook for almost 8 years now. How times flies. It was my rewards for getting 5A's in UPSR and I always using it all the time. Great memories. Its almost 2pm right now, yesterday, I was planning to get done with my journal and sketch some ideas but then.. here I am. Scrolling unnecessary things, watching cupcake Aisyah's vlogs, pinterest, facebook, we heart it, 8 share, and everything you could think of. My boyfriend had spw meetings going on today and that's why ladies and gentleman.. I'm procrastinating in my cozy room. By the way, I just unpinned my roomate's pic on my board because.. ya I'm not the old Deanna. Y? Because she's dEaD. I think I don't have to tell about what's going on between us lately but I share my problems with my old friends, they're still the best tho but saiyidah's word really make me think all night. 

"orang berilmu ni, makin tinggi nilai ilmu, makin dia merendah diri"

ooh burnnnn hahah kkdak but she's right tho.
but anyways, just let forget about that because they doesn't deserve space in my blog.

It was a great date yesterday with Zarul.The original plan was on Saturday but since I think that he'll be tired from meeting.. I decided to go out on Friday. We bought our movie ticket first then looking for something to 'alas perut' because the last time both of us ate were at 11am-ish so we grabed pizza and chocolate drink. Even though he said that his stomach is still hungry, I just let him stay that way because that guy need some discipline. Lapar je keje. (I looked like evil stepmother already). Then we walked to Popular just to torture myself as I set in my mind, don't buy useless things as I wont use it because of sayang??? Ended up buying a pen and kitkat for sneaking into cinema purpose. 

It's almost 4 as our ticket is at 4.15 pm so we bought Iced Lemon from syurga nearby. You know I'm being sarcastic aite? RM7 for large Iced Lemon Tea. huwargh. Then we sat on the couch waiting the hall 2 light coming on and Zarul keep annoyed me because we're too early. I can sense that he's bored so we took a walk to Ubiso and he insisted me to buy the colour marker as it were 3 for RM5. After having hard times choosing colours. (it way more hard than choosing lipstick). So I put the colour in my pocket and we went into hall 2. We watch The Foreigner. (9/10) y'all Jackie Chan was in that movie so it was great and the plot twist makes me goes yas bitches hahah kkdak, It was cold that Zarul already become seashell beside me. Not focusing on him tho I just let him be. 

After the movie end, we went to eat tomyam because we both hungry as heck. I almost have a chit chat with table as Zarul keep playing his tablet. He can't focus 2 things at once and sometimes that fact makes me cringe. I just like, ko sabar jap, tengok la tablet to sampai kiamat and luckily he notice my temper was about to blow up and he acted like a good cute boy again. This man knows how to save himself from trouble tho. Ugh.

We went back to armada after finished eating and I thanked him for today and go back to my room. 

So that's what happened on Friday and I'm gonna procrastinating bye. My hand is still sore as last night maybe I dream of winning the swimming championship as my hand stretched. My muscle sore tho. 

Till the next tYmE!!!!

Hormones Kick

hey guys, 
I'm back. 
These 2 weeks are extra stressful for me. My hormones are not coping well with me as I started to be more grumpy-ier. Always throwing tantrums @ my boyfriend and somehow feeling very bad about it but deno is always deno aite. Today I’m a  cheerful person, the next day I’ll be like ‘don’t talk to me’ mood and I got sudden craving too. I want burger, ice-cream, secret recipe’s cake, dominoes, chicken chop, iced milo and etc. #forsureimnotpregnant

I’m one of the committee for Recom and Marey Carnival event this weekend and I can expect that it would be stressful as Aisar asked me to be one of the mentor for new member to handle Recom’s booth as it is Club’s day on the same day and Faris want Ain and me to be the volunteer at Takraw’s game. Life is great for me this month.

Today I’m a bit under the weather. Headache, runny nose, nausea, back ache and etc you name it. I just feel frustrated with this condition and already throwing tantrums @ my boyfriend for 178 times this month. I know he didn’t deserve this kind of treat but I can’t fight my hormone. This anger got the best of me as I started to push everyone away and realized that what I did is so wrong on so many level. Yup, my brain started functioning when the damage is done.

It’s been 2 days that I felt like I want to lay in my bed all day, feeling lazy to eat and even go outside. I only go out when I’ve to go to classes. Luckily my boyfriend is so thoughtful although I've said for 200th times that I don’t want to eat or meet him yet he still making sure I’ve food to eat that he’ll wait @ the gate for me and when he saw me, he’ll always put his smile faces at me although the pahit getir that I’d gave to him. Hahaha okay I appreciate that effort tho. I already told him that don’t even try to understand me as he’ll be depressed about it but he did anyway. So guys, that’s the answer why zarul had to go to class with eye bag and if you take a close look in his mind, it would be a mess in there.

So yesterday we’d a meeting for those who stays in hostel and that one specified girl yeah,, that one which zarul already clarified to me that she doesn’t important for both of us, she sits behind our row. So, I was like okay, why would I care about her and I continue minding my business and later that night I saw her tweet that says she’s so annoyed seeing this one person. I don’t get offended easily guys but this one. My head is on fire already. I don’t know why I need to write about this but I do think I need because I can’t get it out from my head. I was like, c’mon, you can do better than this. Haishhh, I hope I got the strength to level up my inner bitch inside me but I choose to be kind because my mom is not raising her kid as weak person. *sudden round light appears on my head*.

So now it’s 12.30pm, I got class at 2pm which is diesel engine subject. Had to wear uniform ugh. I’m gonna tidy my room and ease myself. I don’t to stress myself as it would be bad for me.

Till next time.


I feel like I ain't special enough in someone's life. 
Now what? After all these thimgs that someone ever do in your life.. it ain't enough? 
Honestly, I just want to be 'that' person. 
That person that she/he will contact when they can't sleep at 3am.
That person that she/he shared their problems.
That person who always had people listened to them passionly and not only say 'then?' while their eyes locked on their screen's phone.

And that person will never be me.
She/ he find another girl/guy instead.

And then, the fingers will always point at me.
I'm the one who didn't put too much efforts.
I'm the one who didn't care enough.
I'm the one who play the victim.
The problems came from me.

The moment when you decided to hide what  you've been doing. That's the moment I can feel that I might losing that person soon. 

I feel nothing.
Reminding myself about what I wrote 4 months ago,

   ' you'll fall hard'

hahah what goes around comes around right deanna?

I've been knowing all this for a long time.

hahah It's hard to be me.
Always seeing things that I don't want to see/face in this life.
they always knew what you did, we just keeping it silent. Keeping the stuff inside our heart. Let it consumes ourself. And then we cried every night hoping the next morning the bad memories will gone.

you're my sweetest downfall.

I love you first. 


#throwback when syazarul put me in his car boot.
    Once again, I'm so sorry about being inactive lately for this past 2 months. Overall, my third semester was a disaster. Your home girl fcked her GPA and not forgetting CGPA too. Screw those 2.89 and 3.34. I'm in semester 4 already for a week and I can feel those heat that I'm gonna be dead meat this semester. I've 7 papers this semester and I'm 'extra' fine. *sipping tea in a burning house gif*. No more chilling for this now on. No more yolo. No more fun. No more... Gonna start hustling early this time, #studyeveryday lol pray for me. I can sense the fear of studying just by looking at the subject's full name;
naval architecture 2
applied thermodynamics
steam turbine
diesel engine
marine auxiliary 2 
ship materials
intro to entrepreneurship 

    wow there're a lot of stuff to read this year.. and again...  *sipping tea in a burning house gif*. My schedule are packed this semester but luckily, I don't have any class at night so I can rest peacefully. 

    So I did mention about losing weight for 1000th times already aite? Yesterday, I want to cancel my joging session until I read Izza's post about her new resolutions. 
'Enough of somedays, I want to reach my full potential today. And I want to start working on myself today, and every day that comes after.  ' 
    She's right tho. I lost counts on how many times I told myself about one day I will do this, that and so on. So I got ready and started joging yesterday. No regret. I thought I lose both of my legs but I'm fine. But still no regret tho. Joging alone. Nothing and no one bothers me anymore.  I started to control my eating a bit since my stomach already reaching for the stars as it went makin ke depan. #boroiproblems

    Apart from that, lately, I've been doing all things by myself.. I mean when my boyfriend is not around, there's only me. I got me for life sort of. Day by day my circle got collapsed. I don't trust people around me anymore. Whether they just taking advantages on me or whatsover. I just.. enough. I don't need this type of people in my life anymore so I decided to stay away a bit from them. Sometimes I just don't understand people, what did I do that I deserved this punishment. Being in relationship with Zarul is such an eye opening. It was hard. Lose a lot of people. When things went wrong, it's always him where I find my comfort. Choosing him was easy than people out there to tell my problem, rant about everything, and so on but most of the times asyik jadi dinding kena tempias my anger. Sorry baby . *cries @ penjuru katil*

    This semester, Iman and I are best friend forever. Both of us face the same problems, being judged for everything. But it's okay. Already gained my confidence to face the world. So.. where's my shield? I do everything for myself. My happiness is more important than others. I'm not afraid anymore if I'm being judged or scared ; thinking I'm alone without any friends. Rather have 2 friends than untrustable circle. I don't need friends who make me feel bad about myself 24/7 or questioning everything that I did.

May the bridges that I burn light the way; 

    There're a lot of posts that I wish to publish but haih,, the story line is a bit messy and I'm so fed up. *hentak kaki* so here's the posts that I hutang with my blog

- My birthday suprise
- WOW intake July
-Akmal's open house
-catching up with secondary school's mate
-hangout with fika & aiman

If I got the chance.. I'll update more about it.
See you later xdwx

Last Ramadhan | 2017

Its been 2 months I didn't update. Its been a hectic semester for me tho.. and the pain doesn't end yet. I'd still remember on 16+ weeks onward, my classmates and I had to deal with a lot of assignments, quiz, tests, mini project, report and so on but in the end, its all worth it. I've been dealing with a lot of stresses and somehow I feel bad for myself. How could I do that? I always keep reminding myself about NOT to do last minutes work but nah.. still in the same phase. Luckily there's Zarul to help me going through all of that. Zarul is one of the tabah people around me right now.. I always throw tantrums at him whenever I'd to face some kind of bad days and etc. Thats why I love him so much *cries at the corner of my room*  I just turned into 20 years old last 12 days ago and on that day, I'm the happiest. He's with me throughout that day and he kept suprising me.. ''non stop'' . I don't know what I did this whole time to receive that kind of treat. I'll update about what happened during my birthday, don't worry, I already saved the memory in my journal so I just had to flip it all back to refresh how that day was going.

Ramadhan this year, I learnt more about people around me. The one who really there to help and the one who stand as 'friend' in my contact list only. But let just forget about that since it is not worth my time to write about it. Overall, I literally spent most of my Ramadhan this year with him and I don't even feel bad about it. Why would I feel bad to spend my time with him? He's one of the (not so many people) who doesn't make me feel bad about myself. Besides, Iman and I have been besties since couple days ago. We teamed up together, do all the assignments and stayed up all night just to finish our last minutes report. Procrastinating at our best. My mock interview videos had settle. Thanks to Iman for having such patience dealing with me.. dealing with my terrible singing and dancing talent. fun fact: If I was in a video, I'll not watch them. Ever. Video time semester 2 subject mandarin pun tak penah tengok.

I do write 'pain don't end yet' sentence on my first paragraph aite? so my university thought its gonna be cool to put study week on the same week as Hari Raya Puasa. Cool right? To be honest, I do have major problems with Static, Auxiliary and Thermodynamics subjects. I just.. I don't want to fail again. I always let myself down with my attitude. Its always the same problems thats haunting me since last semester. huwargh I gotta change myself for real next semester as next year its gonna be my last year for my diploma and I want good cgpa and everything. Deanna.. please.. change your attitude or you'll end up hating yourself like you did last time. I just review my exam slip and.. my seating for thermodynamics is #1. The closer to the door, the faster you can run from junior that see you as senior repeat hahah.

So just wish me luck guys.. I need those luck and good vibes right now. 'Raya every year but CGPA maintains forever'. Hopefully there're no unwanted things happened during this peak times and may no bitch ever come close to my boyfriend as I'm exhausted from mental koyak lately. Please don't. Find your own mates sis fuh fuh fuh.

sorry for quick updates, will come back as soon as I finished my finals. muah xoxo



Ain, Mirul,Acha, Bad, zarul

So, let’s talk about the orienteering event that I mentioned in my last post. This event was an event that changed my game forever I thought I can do the running guys but nah hahah joke on me.

Before we departed from our uni, I went out with Zarul that evening around 6pm-ish with his friend to send some stuff and then we grabbed some food. It’s around 7pm when I arrived at my room and the frustrating fact was I’m not packing yet... double thumbs up for myself. Do I need someone to lecture me about last minutes thingy? No I don’t because Zarul did that earlier. I did the packing stuff on time and I’m so proud of myself for not taking forever to get ready. (that day only). Zarul waited for me at the gate and we walked together to the place that we’ve been told earlier. Not forgetting the secret recipe’s cake that I got from Kak Oya. Before I left my room, Kak Oya approached and hands me the cake as yesterday was her birthday and my lazy DNA won’t turn back to my room to get a tupperware so I can give a slice to Muz. Muz redho and just asked me to take both slices BUT she wants replacement for that one slice of cake so I just said yes. (I’m typing this out so I won’t forget about my promise that I’ve made or else I gotta sleep at the outside of our room).

After settling with the form, we went into the bus. Ain, Mirul and both of us sat in the same row so be prepared for exciting adventure. The funny things is, I remembered about the trip that we went to Melaka for a camp and I sat beside Muz while was all alone.  I remembered how hurt it is when my hearts screamed that I WANT TO SIT BESIDE HIM but I can’t. That time baru pegang status skandal kan nk buat gena hm. But now, dreams do come true guys, we sat beside each other. Achievement unlocked. I slept on his shoulder most of the time so who need pillow anyways when you got your boyfriend’s shoulder.

We arrived at UTeM after spending hours on the bus. That morning was started with team’s registration. Nama team shafla detura weh even Mukhlis don’t want to mention that name haha. I think I was high during picking that name for orienteering. #noturningback . The replacement for Muz and Iem’s team was Mirul’s friend. (acha and bad) After warm up our bodies, we were getting ready for pelepasan mix category. The fun part was... a team supposed to have a guy and a girl but bad luck for acha and bad... had to join the pelepasan haha gay alert. The first checkpoint was the chancellery building and what did they expect from us ? we don’t even know the where the building located but we just follow team depan. Not even 30 minutes running... seorang deno yang berwawasan tinggi pancit uolls. Selalu jogging kawasan flat je, situ berbukit and my legs can’t handle that so I just made cute face to Zarul hoping that he will understand me but nah...kena bahan citer dia. After arrived at the chancellery building, they gave us the map and we must planned carefully because there’re 20 checkpoints that needs to be done.


We collaborated with Ain and Mirul’s team.. too bad that Ain and I couldn’t run anymore because their uni’s parameter are huge. So, we just walked and talked like there’s nothing happened while our boyfriend works hard to find all those checkpoints haha (must urut them for the hard works that they did). We find the checkpoints together until  Ain need to rest because she’s exhausted so I told zarul that I wanted to continue this race. (sebab nak smpai cepat punya pasal and that was the moment where you can test your partner hahah). I did ran with him because sebagai seorang bakal isteri yang selalu menyokong suaminya dari belakang.. I must ran with him. MUST.  But most of the time he asked me to wait somewhere while he’s finding the checkpoint. (menangis terharu di bucu katil). There’s one time where I already thinking about giving up but he decided to hold my hand while running. Hope jeles guys. So, I was holding his hand most of the time until the end.  The maximum time that they gave us was 2 hour and 30 minutes but during pelepasan, we set our timing. Guess what ... both of us finished at 2 hour 22 minutes. 8 minutes remaining. Anything is possible okay. Zarul asked me to cool down first before sit. I was so thirsty that I belasah 2 cup of redbull that day. #healthylyfe #fitforlyfe

The closing ceremony was about to start while Mirul’s arrived with his body was soaking wet. He said that he was so frustrated (can’t find the checkpoints) so he jumped into the lake nearby. Nice. All of us got medals which is nice and I can riak in front of my parent. So there’s lucky draw at the end of the ceremony so guess what... your girl ... yup this girl... got lucky that day. When they mention my number... I just like... eh, number aku kan tu then I stood up and asked ain for double confirmation and yup.. I’m lucky. I got hamper , that was the reason why everyone were targeting me.. for free food.

The finisher's medal
low quality pic


Amer (Recom's president)

We went back to our uni at 2pm-ish. Overall, even though there’re some incidents that made 4 of us hate and anti to that one guy... this was the great memories that I ever had. First event for Zarul and me as a team. I can see how patient is he melayan all my mengada and whatsoever. Thumbs up for Mukhlis as the program director and UTEM for this momentous event. I lost 1kg which is not bad hahah 13km lari bhai. Haha so that’s all about my last event. Zarul is at Jerai right now for GPMS’event. Hiking Gunung Jerai. He’s gonna be back on Sunday. Keep praying that his legs are tough to get to the puncak.


muka barai lepas race

Have a great Saturday guys.

Till we meet again hee bye.

p/s: little update 


Heart eyes emoji

    Ok maybe the last post is a little bit overrated so let’s just forget about it. Phew so it's already April. Time flies so fast aite? Actually, I'm really exhausted because this week is hella crazy. It’s all started on Friday. What's Friyay to me every week? None because this girl is a little over-active with her life these days. So I don't have any class on Friday but Muz told me that she wanted to send Sam off at bus station and I said I wanted to accompany her. That Friday morning I went to the library.. sort of acah study a bit but I just scrolled my phone, liking instagram's picture and other stuffs. Then I got messages from Ain, she said she was at cafe so I went to join her. We'd a little convo and Amirul joined us too. She got class at 10am so I don't have to worry leaving her alone there. (she's a little bit mengada when that time of the months arrived so I don't mind). 

    Muz picked me up after she finished her class and we started our journey. (Iem joined us too). The original planned was to send Sam at Pantai Remis but then his bus is not arrived yet so.. we decided to send him at his mum's school terus. Last minute planned always working guys. Always. After lunch at Taiping, we went back to uni and arrived at 1pm-ish but we're still hungry that we grabbed slurpee and hershey's ice-cream. I killed my diet guys. Rest well buddy. You'll be missed by me.... Do you think my journey end there? of course not.. after Muz parked at Armada 2.. this girl.. yeah your favourite girl is on fire.. which is me.. went to my boyfriend's car because we'd movie date with his friends. If only I knew about the word 'rest'.. definitely I would spend my evening on my comfy bed but haa nope. I choose my boyfriend over bed. #heislucky #wheretofindgflikeme We watched boss baby and Ain was right. That movie is actually good and the characters are so freaking cute that I was like 'awww' the whole time but I acted like nothing happened because zarul will actually bahan me for that so its a no. After movie, we'd a little date (we sent off his friends at armada and went out again) and having a fun convo.. its not a conversation actually, its more to bahan the wechat's couple. I can't dohh.. just by thinking of them make me wanna laugh. Like.. haih mudah terhibur betul lah. 

    Finally neno knew about getting tired so I arrived at my room at 8pm-ish that somehow I got Iem's messages about Anis's programme at 9pm. Lina asked us who joined the night trail to gather at 10pm so I joined Anis's programmed for a short time because I'd only 1 hour with them.

    You can see those photos (my hiking and Anis's leadership programme at my instagram).

    Pheww so that's my activities for this weekend. I only slept for 2 hour guys. *pat myself * 
You know.. even though I'm exhausted and need some good sleep.. I still want to meet him tho even he's kesian at me but sayang I don't care haa gittew.

    You know what I've been thinking these days.. thinking about how lucky I am. I read my journals every day. The day I fall for him thinking maybe its just normal crush and I can't get him because maybe he got a gf whatsoever and then the next page.. boom he's my boyfriend now. kelakar kan #fattahaminlovers The  fun things.. my feelings towards him don't fade I mean dude... I'm obsessed with this guy that my wallpaper, the back of my phone's case, and my journal is full with his face. Is it too over? hmm I can't help myself tho the hardwork that I did to attract his attention is phenomenal such as tried to get close with him, acting like I accidentally sent the wrong messages at him and others. omg I'm so embarassed thinking of what I did. kelakar kan its actually paid off. So girls, work hard okay but don't with others bf or what.. know your limit. 

    Every time I went out with him, it legit feel like it is our first time. Like the first day we met. I still got butterflies in my stomach tho every time he kissed my hand whatsover and my mind would say.. congrats gurl, this guy is yours.. for real. I should celebrate for this. 

    But after all this time, I guess maybe things happened at the right time because right now I try to live my life well.. if he does something that I don't like.. i choose to keep quiet. (if he saw this he will reply.. 'she choose to flight mode her phone for an hour actually'). Because I think.. its not worth to fight over little things because in the end of the day.. I'm the one who'll search for him because seorang wanita yang berwawasan 2020, berdikari dan mampu berdikari atas kaki sendiri need her man too. (facepalm). When was in my 1 series age.. (14 and above lah sekarang dah 2 series = 20). I want my man to keep my sticky notes that I give to him and the day of our perkahwinan he'll open the box that contains all of my notes throughout the years. If it happen to me.. omg he's the real deal tho but I don't put high hopes over this because that was my angan2 palsu back then. hahah I should sign in into joke's contest guys because I'm too funny. 

    Anyways, I'm hoping that this April month will be a good month to me and everybody. Pray for my tests this week to haih gonna hustle more. Oh and happy birthday to my brother, that Irfan one. Already 15 years old haihh. he's getting older tho.. and taller..... great.....

    Hee till we meet again.

    p/s: my whole body is still sore that zarul might piggyback me during orienteering next week. Pray for his back, muscles, bones and other joints.



I guess in this life,
people who we thought that he/she gonna support us might be the one who brought us down.
People keep leaving.
and I keep staying.
After all, me myself are the one who have to be strong to face this challenge.
I'm tired of crying in my bed. People said that I'm ego but did they know I'm the broken ones all this time?
Every kindness that I've made.. and people keep remembering my faults.
I can't do that, I can't go out with this guy, I can't everything.
As a start, I'd deactivated my main instagram, twitter and facebook accounts.
Because I need a damn break from this world.
I need to find myself back. I miss deanna. I miss how strong she is when the world is against her. I miss how she won't lose the battle between herself and the demon. I miss how she don't give a damn fuck towards people who's hating on her.
I miss her.
For now, people keep saying the wrong things about me because they all good at assuming. Very damn good. So I decided to stop. Stop what I am doing right now. Stop going out with him. just stop.
Just call me with the bad names because no one will truly knows me well.
They said that they were always there for me if I had a problem, people have their own problmes too. haha at least you got someone to tell to.
I just met someone who I can be myself and tell my own problems but the world won't approved him.
Why me? Why him?
They said I'm the ego one. I don't know what they want from me? what they expect from me?
I am at my lowest right now without nobody here supporting me except that guy.
To that guy, I'm sorry. I can't fight with these people. Their voices consuming me. I'm in cage right now.. afraid to step outside. I lied to you. I cried last night that's why my eyes swollen pretty bad. They hurt me again.
I'm too fragile now. I'd enough already.
Maybe if I dissapeared, they might reach the peace that they want.
Let me be the one who back off.
I'm not worth their time anyways so why would I bother.
So it's a new headstart. New blog's domain.
With this post. I try to get back up and keep focusing on myself.
I won't let this negativity hold me.
To the people who think they're still my friends, just let me be. let me keep destroying myself as I want to create a new one. the stronger one.
To him, I'm sorry. I wish we had something together but the world are against us.
To my boyfriend, keep breaking my hearts so I won't miss you anymore.
To my parent, I'm sorry for not being your great daughter.
To my brother and lil bro, I'm sorry I can't be your good sister, don't make me your role model.
To my grandma, I'm sorry I can't be your favourite grandchild.

because after all, I'm the bad ones in this story.


It’s 6 hours journey from Kota Tinggi to Kuala Lumpur. We arrived at TBS at 4am-ish. So we decided to take a quick sleep to boost up our energy for that day. Next, we went to Surau to perform our Subuh prayer. Orang ramai takyah citer lah. The surau was so packed with people. Luckily Muz and I got our spot. After that we went to get our breakfast. We waited until 7am-ish. Next, we bought our ticket straight away to avoid any unwanted incident during the last day. After that we called our uber. First time uolls guna uber. The service is quite nice compared to taxi. Moreover, it is Nissan Almera’s car. Jaw-dropped terus hahah. Such a comfortable ride going to UniKL BMI (British Malaysian Institute). Actually BMI was too close with UIA. I planned to meet Anis but the timing don’t let me meet Anis. So close yet so far. It’s been a year since we’d met. I’ll try again later to meet her. I miss her so much mann.. Damn.

We’re the first one to arrive. So early meh. Then we got this crazy idea. Our classmate, Khalish stay at KL. After 30 minutes negotiate with him, we decided to meet up at MidValley. We arrived first, Khalish said he got some small problem with the LRT delay. So Muz and I took a walk around MidValley. Talking about financially stable... I bought Muji’s notebook and lipstick. Lulz. We waited for Khalish at 4 fingers. We’re about to leave when Khalish arrived. Poor little boy hahah. We managed to take pictures with him and waited for him. Then we’d to leave because the event is about to start. Grand entrance uolls haha the event already started. Oh the event’s name is TOT WOW-C 17 (Training of Trainee Welcoming Orientation Week Crew 2017) (for those who want to be fasi, you must joined this program first). (semangat itu penting ye anak2 for this type of event, rasa malu kena buang jauh ke dalam laut).

We proceed with team’s leader. I was in the same group with Tun whose Mimet’s student too but I never realized his existence so basically I’m all alone. (Had to separate with Muzzy muzzy hmm). There’re various student from unikl in our group. Our group’s name is Bumblebee. Later that evening, we’re having ice breaking session. We had to prepare our long-chant and short chant, team’s flag and song. It was a chaos session because of the time limit. Our flag had a bee on it. Our team’s song is Madu di tangan kanan and racun di tangan kiri song. When the presentation part, our team messed up as saka salah sebut.. Instead of Bumblebee, he mentioned about Kasturi. Celah mana kasturi taktau. Hahah. Posing semua dah lawa tapi ttiba datang kasturi. Saka gonna live by the name kasturi for 3 days. Poor him.  Later that night, we proceed with the orientation modules. It’s all about mental booster. Haih so lucky this year intake... During my time, the orientation is all about ragging. Bad luck. Haha but it’s okay.


Second day,
I don’t know how to feel about their shower. As I turn on the shower and the water reach my skin... It was hell on earth. It felt like my body was lift to the heaven. Sejuk nak matey nokrom. How on earth the student here take a bath during finals. Not forgetting the height of the sink. The sink is at the level of my chest. I brush my teeth sambil jengkek kaki. This experienced make me insof sebab kutuk uni sendiri. That morning, we’d zumba and I messed up the step 99% including doing poker face because I don’t how they do the step. For the whole day we’d group activities and sharing ideas with different campuses. Alhamdulilah. My group was quite sporting and I’m comfortable with them. All of them had their own experience handling WOW’s event and there’s me and Tun not knowing anything and tried to learn. Tun was quite hyper too. 

greetings from mimet (akmal,aqim,tun,biqi)

The next day, (as usual, gotta face the water from Antarctica in the morning ). That day was filled with the modules. To avoid all of us suffering from sleepiness and bored virus... The management held bom kalabom’s game where we’d to attack other’s team sambil point fingers at them. Our group won 2 times and lost at last because of the miscommunications but it’s okay.#sayangteam #soproudofmyteam We’d a lot of fun times together. That night, we’d learnt about doing CPR and saving people from choking. Tetiba teringat, during my form 2, I went to PBSM’s camp and we’d to do cpr at the doll.. kt mulut dia okay. Sakit beno dada time tu because we’d to make sure his tummy gerak (means udara kita sampai kt perut dia lah). We gotta do it to get our certificate. (I didn’t get mine lol ; failed)

The last day was a quite sad. Saying goodbye to my new friend wishing we’ll meet them again soon. We took our picture together. Doing boomerang together. Sharing the hamper. Missing you guys. Hoping to meet you guys again later! (yen, iemran, min, saka, sha, mus'ab, ifah, alif, ridzwan, una, paq, bai, syida, amirul,kila, sha, que)

ootd sekali nokss

tun and yen (team's leader)

tun again -_-

ifah and min


Muz, Cikman and I reached at TBS at 7pm-ish. Muz’s bus is at 9.45pm while mine is at 10.45pm so I asked Pael to accompany me. Lucky he said yes. (Happy tears falling from my eyes). After Muz’s left, Pael went to KFC as he’s hungry and I waited for him. Sweet tak sweet baq hang dia tolong suap aku makan. My tummy already full with 2 plates of passemboq (lagi satu muz tak habiskan so her beloved roommate tolong habiskan) (bff goals checked). Dia suap aku smpai aku surrender. During the waiting hour, he will make an effort to make me forget about the time but sorry baby. I miss home. He helped me carrying my bag that have the same weight as the baby elephant. Thank you baby. (Happy tears falling again).

I slept throughout the journey... Waiting patiently to arrive Perlis. I miss my parent.