It's been a long time since I've updated. It still the same.. boring life that I'd to face all day. But I still breathing which is nice. Yeah I'd two ig for reasons.  That first one is for dermarians whch is my friends and whatsover. The second is for the person that I really care tho.. it's easier for me to stalk whatever they did on instagram lel. stalking level: over 999. And I follow this one user and I should call him 'abang' cuz he's older than me. And he commented at one of my picture and somehow I feel ya our soul are like old friends but in the end he 'bye'd me. cilake leknet punya abang kahkah. But nevermind and then I realised. What if.. the banana fruits 2 times in a row maybe 3 4 or5? It scared me a bit.. the idea of meeting new people. Ya they real and if I succeed. I'll study in the same u with 'em. What if they'd something in common with my past friends. "fake". Maybe at first they'll treat you nicely and in the end the'll do something to bring you down. My worst nightmare had become true. Thanks 'friends'. I want to start a brand new classy respect toward each other life. Even people don't like us.. we still like us. We're just a bunch of kids that's being sabotage by so-called-friends and they just left us hanging without the answer of "what had we done?" question. It's not even cool when you do something terrible to your friends just to comfort yourself.

You won this time but one day it'll happened to you back and that time you'll realised how stupid you're. Nevermind, I don't talk much but I still saw what you did. I'm just observing it. If I tweeted or whatsover it means that I still don't grow up. Silence. Maybe silence will stop you from doing all this stuffs but I was wrong. so lantaklah lel. So all I did to fulfill my 'hambar' days is sketching. I wish I could draw faces or people.. but when I do.. my drawings look alike a bunch of monkeys having feast. sobs sobs. And I'm planning to make a journal but nah I'm lazy. Idk what'll happen when I get into university. My roomates may have some kind of depression that cause by me. sorry mates hahaha. Oh ya I pass my driving license kahkah!! I fail at first try. The second time I came.. I forgot to bring my IC and license. Had to getback to Kuala Perlis to pick 'em up. pehh nasib pass doe tak rugi balik. Only god knows how nervous I am cuz I fail at parking slot. What I did to overcome my nervous? ya I sing in the car. Jamming Sam Smith's song. And at the Z part.. I did it well. Thank God the sam JPJ that fails me marks the pass box. Half part of me want to hug me half of the rest felt like to punch him. There's no in between wehee. I can drive legally right now. So the conclusion is.. I'm happy for the life that I've.. things that happened to me.. at least I've great friends around me that sometimes become supporting as fuck and sometimes the evilies satan that I'd ever met. lel bubye


So my days went better than before when I choose not to care. And then I realised that.. oh my, I started to to lose myself. I don't even know me anymore. I'd another instagram's acc which when you see it.. it'll make you think. Is this deno? actually I dedicated that account to Syz and luckily he knew about it and he'll like the picture to notify me that he had read it. lel. Nowadays, I could finished like 3 drawings in one day and that's not normal. I hate it when I finished a lot of drawing. idk it made me feel so stressed. At one point I felt like I want to deactivate all my social media account. but nah. As a batak it's quite hard for me lololo mengaku XD

"Kalau aku jadi orang lain.. hampa nak kawan ngn aku dak?" I sent it in the group and.. mukhriz said that hang okay ah kami terima seadanya.. merendah diri apa. When I'm being serious they'll take it as a joke. This type of friends is a keeper. Btw nick hazwan jonas finally turning into a normal person eventhough he's a famous artist. lel. I want to hug my bistfwin aka my kang gaelly hahaha. When he make that confuse face it looks alike kang gary a bit. Not forgetting syedd!! my ultimate violin's player. (He'd a concert this evening) Apart from that, he's my secret agent.. I told him to spy my long lost enemy there.. once I got my prey.. I wouldn't let it go. ( I thought of being a lion just now with that type of hair around my face and tail behind my back) r u ok deno? lol no.

And I started to live healthy life. I always jog with my primary schoolmates at Bukit Kubu. We climbed the hill.. in the middle of the way nagging about how tired this type of exercise. Nak menyesal naik pun dah tak guna sebab dah smpai puncak. feck mi life. Then there's a day where 200 m more to reach the finished point.. there goes the heavy rain ft lightning.. full speed mak cik mak cik lari doe. RIP paha and betis. I feel bad about next story hahahaha . (day 3: I still can't stop laughing my a$$ off) I was about to take my water bottle and suddenly the helmet fall. It's not regular fall. It fall with some physic and God's power. It roll down and dush.. into the lake. pfft HAHAHHAAHA luckily the God loves us.. 8 less people saw the incindent. My friend is the one who went into the lake to take that poor helmet while me.. still laughing. HAHAHHAHA that's the higlight of the April's month. Hoping for sado body lel gtg beii