SPARKLE


Hello people. 
Arsenal won against Newcastle last night 1-0. And PERLIS won too. Piala Proton. 7-6. I’m so over the moon. Actually the main reason I write this post because my blog seems full of dust. I just.. lack of idea. I don’t know what to write. Gaah, my life is boring. I don’t have any ‘special’ friend. My parent just keep me in the house. They’ll say no if I asked their permission to go out with my friends. Oh, I almost forgot. I’m Asian -_- Asian parent is so damn weird and strict : / Do you study for this school holiday? Hell NO! I’m not ready for school. I’m not ready for 2014. SPM. Dayyum. Wait a minute. You know what. It feels like... a dream. Time flies so fast. Rasa macam baru kelmarin dapat surat tawaran ke SMK Derma, kenal Anis Farhana, Saiyidah, Nazlifa etc. 2010 is my best year. So many important event occurred in 2010. That year is where Justin Bieber became famous when his hits song ‘One Time’ became popular. I thought he was a girl when I listened to that song for the first time. Naah, he is a boy with that hair, his arm is clean without tattoo. 2010 is where I found The Wanted. Nathan is 17 yrs old that time. Now he’s 20 years old, Siva and his girl engaged, Jay’s new hairstyle, Nariana, Nathan surgery, Word of Mouth etc.. 2010 is where I met my err. H-.. GOOD LOOKING senior. But they don’t know about my existence,, untill now. -..- Wait..I’m creepy af.  Naah, I miss 1,2,3 TEKUN!! I wish I could turn back time but I can’t do that.

You guys changed me for the better. And now here I am. Next year is my senior year. 4 Harmoni became 5 Arif! We’re like family now. Anis is like our big sister and Afif Rodzi is our big bro. Lil bro / sis? Lol. Even the teachers in school doesn't pay so much attention to our class like other classes, we’re still awesome. We’re not stupid.. just lazy. Blergh :p 2013 is great too. I met Faiq, Hazwan.. know who’s being a bitch to me.. that stupid form 1 student. I met big sisters and bros from uitm arau. Meet my unknown status brother. Ain, Liya and Me became friends. Damn, that event should be highlighted. Ozil signed for Arsenal and Walcott became a father. *wipe tears* Met Mr. Faris Azmi. I’m done with him, Idc what he’s doing right now. Just go and leave. Forget all. And 2013.. Justin Bieber is retiring. Thank you Aaron Ramsey!!! Thank you!! For the first time, Me, Anis and Saiyidah masuk pertandingan melukis banner. Haram tak menang. HAHAHAHA. For the first time, MU is not in top four premiere league. Sorry, Arsenal’s fans tengah sibuk main layang-layang. Biasa la atas bukit angin kuat.. hahahaha!!


11/6/14. 17 years old. I don’t want to grow up. Growing up hurts. I’ve to deal with various people in my life. People always judging you whatever you do. *kau minat The Wanted? The wanted tu bukannya famous pun* , *u’re so pathetic* , etc.. Just smile. That should shut the haters mouth. If that happen to you, what will u do? Me? I’ll punch them.hahaha nope. I’m serious. Why u don’t puch that kid that bashing u in twitter? Oo dear, she just 13 years old. To young too dumb to realise. I’m giving her second chance ;) 2013 taught me to not trust people so much. How crazy.. I mean.. After SPM, If I get good result.. I’ll further my study to Newcastle.. become an architect. Go to Emirate Stadium, meet Arsenal’s player, Meet The Wanted, Linkin Park using my own money.. Getting marry and having kids.. craazy mann. Next year, I’ll use my time wisely. Make memories with people you love as mush as I can.. I’ll do many mistakes as I can.. so I can learn from the mistakes and make me a better person. Appreciate your besties and so on. Enjoy the little things in life cause maybe one day they'll be the biggest things. Here’s to the kids who hates themselves. Stop trying to commit suicide or cut your hands. Those are stupid. Sia-sia Allah bagi otak tak mau guna. Appreciate yourself. I love you guys. Brace yourself because next year will be challenging. Stay strong xx


MEEEEEEP

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hi hello.

I'm panic right now. Oh god, I can't log in my Tumblr :'( Why just not making new account? no!! I've my followers there and I've follow many people using that account and picture that I've uploaded. Huu, and I just sent my email to tumblr support and now I'm waiting for their reply. Oo wait, they replied to my email. They're asking me to wait and don't make any account yet. Oo, they're so sweet but better hurry up. I wanna reblog everything about Arsenal Party and Monreal. Arsenal party.. can't believe Arsene Wenger dressed up as the bananas in pyjamas with his co.< Is this real or they're just joking? I dunno : /  Per dressed up as jack sparrow and Szczesny dressed up like robocop. Monreal wore Ninja Turtle costume, he wore mask and shell behind is back. HAHAHAHA. Ramsey make a good choice! He dressed up as Rambo. Rambo Ramsey. Mesut Ozil? SUPERMAN!! Mikel as Zorro. Ryo as Santa Claus. Santi as Mario. They're too cute.!! oh and Podolski as hulk. Giroud as captain america and may more. Yea I just got good news!! I can log in my tumblr again. Thank you tumblr support! I love you guys *kissing my netbook screen*

Senior year is coming !! Dyno is coming like a bouncy ball!! Pfft.. And, my senior year is not same as senior year in high school musical. They've hot guy and purdy gurl. Naah, the guys in my batch? Half medium la. -..- SPM!! Knees on the ground. O Allah, please make sure my 9A+ dream come true. Amin! Hey 15 years old Dermarian, yo waddup? got ur PMR’s result already huh? Congratulations lil bros and sis.. 89/151 students got straight A. And you guys picture is on Utusan Malaysia’s newspaper. Lucky batch!! What your parent gave you? Smartphone? Playstation? Trip to Paris? CAR?! My parent just gave me smartphone and that damn thing has ruined my form 4 life. I got addicted to it. Every minutes I've to check my twitter and Instagram. Arghh,!! Next year.. revision/text books!! You and I will getting married. We’ll divorce after SPM. Sebarang surat bantahan tidak akan dilayan!!

This 23rd, I’ll go to keyel. You know keyel? Keyel = KL. For? Vacation!! I hope I can meet DJ NAS-T somewhere. If I found him.. I must take a picture with him! That’s it. 23-25. School stuffs? Tak beli lagi. Watlek watpis dulu. Lool! I’m excited to meet Anis, Saiyidah, Aina, Izzati. Farah, Liya, Ain. Mat Yus, Izuan, Afif Redza and etc.. I miss Hamonikans.. Harmonians? Harmo...  aah nevermind. Next year gonna be tough. Because? That fcking stairs. The numbers of stairs that I've to climb is crazy. I can lose weight next year : /  And Arsenal vs Bayern Munich. Lol, amender ni.. haha. Lets make thing easy. I wish Arsenal will win that match. Arsenal vs Chelsea. No! I wish Arsenal win but at the same time I want Chelsea to win too. Chelsea? Ur supporting Chelsea now dyno? No.. I like Juan Mata. That’s it. Yea.. yeah mann.. yeahh. Pfft. Ajet bosscielny jadi rapper atas plane. So yah, we’ll meet again in next post. Buhbye~~ oo, please tell your parent that you love them because you gonna die after seeing this picture..



DECEMBER

Hi xx
December already. So, wahey hello SPM. Still not ready for the next year. I'm scared to death. How I wish SPM is easy as UPSR. Nah just NO. Lately, I've trouble sleeping. Normally, I sleep around 11.30 pm and woke up at 6.00 am but.. my sleeping schedule is fcked up due to school holidays. At 1.30 am, I still can't sleep, but praise to God, the internet is still working.. so here I'm last night wechat'ing my friends, scrolling twitter and instagram.. I've no life right now. Mum, can we travel to New York City right now and meet The Wanted? I miss my classmate. Anis , Saiyidah, Aina, Koala, Siput, Mat yus etc. Huerm, ooh and last night they was a Final World Cup Draw. Y'all know, I'm supporting Spain. My Cassilas, Cazorla, David Villa, Torres etc. Te amo chicos. But, this is the heartbreaking part. When they were playing, here in Malaysia.. It's time to go to school. I'm just like whaaaat!! Mum, can I move to Brazil? oohoi, Spain vs Netherlands. Speaking about Netherlands, that cunt is there. yeay that cunt aka Robin Van Persie. I hate you forever.

For next year, I'm hoping that I'll train myself to spend less time playing smartphone and busied myself with meaningful activities. I'd uninstall my BBM and planning to delete whatsapp and wechat.. But, yeah.. me and my brother can only communicate using wechat. Haih, button call/mesej kat telefon tak mau guna -,- Ain and me were planning to put our gadget into a box and bury it into the soil. Pergh, we'll take it out after SPM is done. I know, that plan will not work. I guarantee that. You know what, you know copycat? Someone who likes to imitate what we do. I mean, hello.. just be yourself. No need to copy what people around you do. Just do whatever you like without comparing it with other things. Only imitate the good things and bring good change in yourself. Haiyer, fedup with people like this. <<RIP dyno's grammar>>

Lately, HBO seems trying to kill me by showing Jeremy Renner's film. I mean.. mann, you show me Jeremy Renner and hope I'll be okay? NO! Can I kiss that guy T_T His muscular body and that cute face tho. Gosh, somebody please call the ambulance because I've a heart attack right now. I mean, just look at this face


His acting in The Bourne Legacy film was so majestic. Last AMA, he's one of the presenter. I just like.. No just no.. If I can hug him. *die* Oh here is some sad news. Paul Walker is dead in car accident..Ferrari nohhh.. That Fast and Furious actor. His son make me burst into tears, her caption in her Instagram was so heartbreaking.. How I wish I can sit beside her and console her but naah.. dia tu Kristian.. me hanya boleh ucap takziah ja. Huemm, soory. Stay strong Meadow Walker. 

OOhey should go study now. bye :)

FIGHT FOR IT DEAR..


CHANGE

Em Hi
CHANGE. I need to change myself. Dear Deanna; please realise, next year is your senior year.. You'll face your goddamn enemy that is SPM. Please be diligent. I beg you huu t,t You'd promise to yourself since form 1, "I wanna be an architect and make my parent proud of me". That one day, people will ask my mom, "Deanna dapat berapa SPM?" and she will answer "Alhamdullilah straight A+".. I wanna prove myself to her that her son is not stupid. I'll buy her a big big nice house and have a pool inside it. I'll bring my parent and bro to go on vacation with my husband and son. To my father, I'll buy a BMW motorcycle/ sport car for him. 

That's my promises. To my future husband.. we'll walk together holding hand and face the world together. We'll have great kids. We'll picnic together every weekend. I'll not dominate ur life. Just do whatever you want. Just keep on track. I will not let jealousy fractured our relationship as husband and wife. You and I, we'll play Fifa on XBox everyday. Seems nice :) you will accompany me early in the morning to see my favourite football team play. Woah, sounds great.. bila nak boleh menikah tah. ROFL

Next year, muahaha dear juniors... I'm a good senior. I'll smile every-time I see u guys walk in front, beside, back, up, down me. Tegurlah, nickname je dyno, tapi bukan makan orang pun. Oh kalau tak faham subjek apa-apa, just fined me and I'll teach you... FOR FREE!! haha, mohon geng junior baca blog aku. And till today I'm still excited for school.. why? I'm just wondering what is the name of my class next year because the teacher decided to change the name of all form 4 and 5 classes. Form 1,2,3? I don't know.. hehe.. Hmm, kelab.. kelab inovasi <<cikgu jamil macam paksa>> persatuan PBSM.. faiq, you'll be my companion there. sports? hockey ... bcuz.. I love Mr. Osman.. lewls, naah. Other sports clubs seems bored.

Macam tak sedia ja macam nak tweet.. "wahey dah form 5", "esok SPM T_T", etc. I'm scared to death. God please help me face all this thing. Naval Arhitect wannabe. Right now.. all I need is my brother. Please wechat me something dear abang. Haih; I need ur advice to face this senior year.Yang penting.. No more ponteng kelas even kelas Sivik. Hidup aku tak tenang duk ponteng kelas. Haih yoo,. Ahh, baru teringat.. bye crush.. you're not student anymore. Please find a better girl than me T_T I can't see your flawless smile anymore. I've been stalking you for 4 years and yet.. haih.. sedih oo. I do stupid thing just to get ur attention. And awak buat tak tau ja. Pergh, terasa tong gas dibaling atas kepala. Please lah, tahun depan waktu amik result spm.. you knelt in from of me and said.. please be mine. Uui, berangan no. 1 cek oii. dah dah dah

Yang penting sekarang. Usaha usaha doa doa doa tawakkal. First month: January.. please pulun.. pulun pulun pulun.. bagi dapat A chemistry. Biaq Nora punya jaw dropped. Haha, I'm not stupid. Prove to Mr. Faris.. kau sombong aku tak peduli.. yang penting aku nak move on. Nak sentap sangat ngan aku hergh >.< I hate you.. I hate hate hate hate you.. heargh, ni payah, baik sangat dengan orang.. inikan pula cikgu.. jadi macam ni la. Rasa macam nak cekau gitar Justin Timberlake nyanyi kat dia lagu Taylor Swift - The Last Time.. "This is the last time, I won't bother you anymore."

This is the last time I'm asking you this,
Put my name at the top of your list,
This is the last time I'm asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye, eye, eye.

pergh,, haha.. Can I borrow your voice just for one day tay? hadui, guys, It's 0006 already. I've to sleep. Ready for new day tomorrow.. tata

RIGHT BEFORE YOUR EYES, I'M ACHING, NO PAST, NOWHERE TO HIDE; <JUST YOU AND ME>

HAVOC

 

Hi guys; hari ni aku rasa cam erghh; reason? I missed Arsenal vs Marseille this morning. Aku ingat depa pagi esok. fuhh; nasib menang. Arsenal won against Marseille ( 2-0 ). Mandi apa semua terus bukak youtube tengok higlights pagi tadi. First goal at 33+ minutes. First Wilshere buh goal, nampak somebody angkat bendera ada logo 'meriam' trademark Arsenal tu. wuuu. Goal first kira cantik gak la. Penangan tendangan kaki kiri Wilshere.

And rasa bersyukur gak la Arsenal menang lagi. Arsenal memang patut angkat piala la season ni. Other good things is, nasib abang angkat aku tu tak on internet.. 'sibuk study agaknya', kalau tak memang kena beleter la ngan dia..'adik, kenapa tak tengok match Arsenal, rugi ooo .. bla bla bla' nasib bagi mesej mau voice message tu; I'm dead. Aku tweet tadi pasal aku terlepas match pagi tadi. 'eleh, yang tu pun nak tweet'.. ikut suka hati aku la acc aku hergh --" then someone reply. Ada jugak manusia ter'missed' match pagi tadi sama dengan aku. Haha~~

So, aku search la gambar about Arsenal tadi, then I found this.
Tengok gambar tu, aku rasa macam 'berdebar'.. I. WANT. TO. GO. THERE. weyh anis, kita dah janji kan, one day we'll go there and cry together. Nak pi woih, you know, my ultimate crush, acehh bajet ah aku; mention nama terus.. bukan ada sapa baca pon blog ni.. Kamarull, Adam, Kamal , Zarrin etc penah pi tempat ni. Bukan semua nama tu crush aku, teka la sapa. Ohooi, okay Deanna, please promise to yourself that next year you'll get straight A.. please please please dapat biasiswa pi NewCastle sambung engineering. Well, mau boleh nanti aku dapat anak aku nak buh nama 'Zafran Tech Engineering'.. hambooi, haha. Mesti snurul jeles. haha. Dah dah. You see that monument, I'll upload my picture posing beside that monument in Instagram one day.

Just bayangkan. Gunners only kayh. Turun dari teksi and realising that you're standing in front of EMIRATES STADIUM. Aku penah janji kat Anis dulu, aku pi sana aku nak guling atas padang dia, aku nak peluk tiang gol, aku nak lari atas padang tuu, aku nak berdiri kat corner.. If I have chance to meet Giroud, Podolski ,Mesut, Cazorla, Szczesny etc.. first thing I'm going to do is..memalukan diri dengan teryak .. and... this is important, take a selfie. Hoh, memang kena juah ah, balik Malaysia, woih abang, adik tangkap gambo dengan diorang.. haha. "facepalm". I could spent my entire life there. 'baca dengan nada sayu' Aku teringin sangat nak tengok Arsenal lawan live, orang lain bersorak aku teryak, believe me. Sebak kud kalau impian kita tercapai. Nanti kalau SPM aku dapat result gempak... benda pertama aku sebut.. Arsenal, wait for me. 'evil laugh' haha, gaya macam nak bakar stadium jaa aku. Haha.. 

And nanti kalau aku ada kerja and dah .. married. 'puii' .. I'll stay at London for a while and send my kids to practise with Arsenal squad. Kalau boleh, aku nak salah sorang anak aku jadi player Arsenal / footballer, your mama will support you till the end hun :) Bila anak aku umur 16+ , hah jum balik Malaysia, hang kena ambik SPM macam aku jugak, ROFL. Aiyy, bila tah boleh pi Newcastle nii, aku nak jadi engineer cepat skit. Dapat gaji, Arsenal; come to mama. Hahaha. The Wanted,Linkin Park, 30 Seconds to Mars hampa tunggu sat noh. Arsenal is more important. 

 
I'LL PUT A MASSIVE EFFORT TO MAKE ALL MY WISHES BECOME TRUE ONE DAY. INSYAALLAH :) 

PRECIOUS

Have you ever been thinking like.. what if you're drowning in a vast ocean? What would you do to save yourself from dying? Or you just give up and let God decide whether you're alive or not. I'd experienced this before and I never mentioned this to anyone even my friends doesn't know about this. I've drowned before.. but not in the vast ocean. I must be dead now. That incident happened when I was in primary school. <<standard 6>> My school organised a trip to Langkawi as all of us will face the UPSR exam. Macam trip untuk motivasi laa. It was fun because you know.. all my best friends/classmates are with me. Day 2 in Langkawi.. teachers decided to let us enjoy in the swimming pool. My face doesn't show that I'm worried of everything. My biggest secret that time is.. I don't know how to swim even diving. When I jumped into the pool.. thank god that the water level just like.. keep me safe from any danger situation. But, all my friends are playing at the centre of the pool because the water level there is deep. With my higher confidence level, I just like push my body to the centre of the pool. Let me tell you how it feel when you're drowned in the water.

It feel like how hopeless you're. How weak you're to fight all this thing. I just like.. tried to scream "help" but I was too nervous and panicked. I just hoping that someone will see me dying right there. My thought during that time is just a flashback what my parent look like, remembering what they'd said to me, my happiest moment with my friends and beloved people, and all I can see is water above me and I'd breathing problem because I'd no enough air. I just like imagine that my parent are crying when looking at my dead body. When all my hope is fading suddenly I heard someone called my beautiful name <<hukalohh pfft>>  "HANIS!" then I felt someone grabbed my hand to the side of the pool. And I just like.. take a breath and cough so hard. My head dizzy. I looked everywhere to find who's saving me just now// I see nothing. Everyone seems so happy and didn't realised that I'm drowning just now. No one knows I'm drowned. hergh @#$%^& I'd such a GREAT friends tbfh.Actually, I knew the person that saved me. After he grabbed my hand and pushed me to the side of the pool, he just left. And yeah, he's a guy and after that incident. He pretended that he never saved me. That one moment when I'm drowned that day, I only remembered this until today, and this keep haunting me like forever.. when I'm drowning, I realised how many sins that I've done .. sin against my parent, teachers, friends and everybody.. Am I going to heaven or hell. I was hoping for one chance to apologize to my parent and everybody. I was so not ready to meet my creator.

And today I realised. God have gave me chance that day. He sent someone to save me. And I'm sitting here like nothing to do. I'm still make my parent angry with me. How ungrateful I am. Didn't appreciate what He gave me before. I feel guilty. I'd broken my promises. O Allah please forgive me what I've done :(  That incident had happened 3 years ago but I still can remember how it feel, how hopeless I'm, knowing that nobody will help you. You'll never realise how lucky you're to have parent, siblings,friends and etc until something knocked you down and nobody will help you. I've experienced that :) before this, I said so much bad things about my parent such as.. my mother talk too much, always judging me.. but now. I appreciate her and the people around me :) 

Dear people;
don't judge people by his/her appearance/ tweet. You'll never know someone until you talk with that person. Like me, the first time I met Liya I assumed that she is arrogant by her face. You know, she always make that 'morning' face that we've do something wrong with her. But when I talked to her.. she is actually pretty funny, open-minded and you know.. she is good friend. So people, stop judging people like you're perfect. If someone judging you.. just fck em' because you're cool and they're jealous with your 'coolness'.

sincerely;
dyno

NYC 

KNOCKOUT

"Hmm, hey.. can I take a photo with you?"
"sure,, *smile*" then; he's lying in front of me and started playing with mah phone.
A girl came.."hey, I listened to your remix almost every day"
*he's making face like.. ok, then? I don't fucking care*
"oops, sorry for interrupting you guys" and she walked away.
*he's looking at me and make a cute smile*

And that's the reason why I'm late to school. That dream seems so real because.. 3 days after, I can feel the way he touch me and his smile face. Awh but who's he? Nick :) Nick who? Afrojack :) Even some peoples said that his face look like monkey but this dyno doesn't give a fck. Awh, I'm in love..love is in the air.. I love you afrojack.. ok, that's too mainstream for a girl like me :( hmm.. School holidays have started aand I don't know what to do. My plan is.. sleeps for 2 months. Ohh, sound like heaven. 

It started raining right now.. My god, such a nice condition for me to start doodling :) Kinda lack of idea what to write right now. Next year is such a big year for 97's batch. SPM! and hello senior year. Watch out meh.. this dyno gonna be badass next year. Oh and there're suprise for us next year. Every class will change their name. 4 Harmoni will become>> Idk. Teachers gonna keep that as secret T_T craving to know. 

So yeah.. nothing to talk about. bye :)

I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER NICK :)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY AXN


3 words..

(: HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIN :)

So, wahey Ain.. you're now 16. 4 more years and boom! you're 20. That time.. I should call you 'granny' and my beautiful/handsome son will call you aunty. Hmm, wait.. it seems not right here.. hmm by the way; It's been an honour to be your ultimate friend for this past month. I can't even remember how we can be a friend. Hmm that's weird. So, today we should hangout together celebrating your birthday but.. naah, my parent seems busy af and my two brothers "sunat" . And I don't have any gift for you. But hey, you have a boyfriend, just ask him for a gift. I should thanked you for being my friend and to liya too. I can;t describe how happy I am when you're sitting/walking/crawling/climbing next to me.

So, next year.. we have to fight for straight A in SPM. After that.. just stick to the plan.. yea that plan.. got straight A, masuk A-level and fly to Newcastle. And tadadadaa~~ we're engineers.. *dancing* now you're 16. mm, what about license? you wanna ride motorcycle? Hahahaha Ain bawak motor.. funniest thing ever. Wait. wanna know what I'm imagining  right now.. you're riding motorcycle with Busu. Hahahahaha.. sweet siak. 

Thanks for always lending me your ears to hear my stories about Arsenal,The Wanted, Mike Shinoda, No Doubt, DJ Nast, Afrojack, Nicky romero, Paiq, Ila and etc. Even your face like.. 'I don't care what this bitch talking about.. just listen to it' .. I appreciated that :) A good friend will do that.. just listen to it without fucking care. Ain.. the first girl I ever met that having crush on Riezman Kinda. Hijabista! hahahahaha And Ain is a hard-working person.. you know.. she just helped me put the plate into the basin, sent Liya's book and mine to the teacher.. And that's the reason why I'm gaining weigh lately. I do less works right now. Even she's hard-working.. helpful; sometimes.. Ain. you're annoying af. Sometimes you just talked.. like that person is standing 10 kilo fucking miles away. But naah, I'm not mad.. at all. Rasa macam nak 'shove' garpu masuk dalam mulut ja.

Please take it easy.. haha, don't take too serious over a joke unless you've same personalities as hoziqq.. haha. And so yah.. happy birthday Ain.. have a good day today.. today jaa la, hari lain tak tau. Please listen to the wanted today. so ngeee :)

HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY TODAY :)


PAIN

Hey peeps (:
I feel so alone right now. Yes I know. There's still someone with me. Up there (: but; you know. Things keep tearing apart right now. Why did you change? Do you have any problem? Just share with us. You're not the same. We miss the old you... why you'd become like this.. you know.. you'd make people around you fell guilty xx Idek what I did wrong to you. You're so quite right now. You're not the person that I met in the past.. I know; you must said, "I don't live in the past".. yea that's true, but.. things from the past helped us until today. Without the past.. I may not 'lepak' with you guys. Just please.. you've a week to settle all this problem before the school holidays.. unless you have given up on our friendship. I know.. you're not weak person that give up so easily without trying (: 

CRUSH. Why I met you? Herghh... can't fight God's decision. There're way too many problems that I can't handle. I'm depressed. Sad. Pain. Sometimes I just wanna grab a knife and cut my wrist. But, I not that stupid; I'm still normal and I can think wisely. Haih. Dear readers; Do you ever get sick of me writing about how sad and depressed I am? hergh.. dino is always being 'kabut' and crazy. woooii.. you know, we have to keep smiling because maybe... we are somebody's crush. Dear future husband.. I'll be your greatest wife and mother to you and your son. I promise. Crush ooi, why your team didn't win that competition? Why you guys just created a regular product? I just wanna meet you face to face mann. We'd met before but you don't know about my existence.. sigh sigh sigh. HE WAS MY ROMEO.. ONLY I WASN'T HIS JULIET. My heart just broke into pieces. Keep wondering who's his crush..stalking his twiiter and wechat 25/8 << too much laa pulak>> hergh. Please be mine.. Please.. I want you forever. huu.. <okay, being psycho much>

FINAL RESULT? please no. Hell no. Addmath? I got single digit bruhh. RIP dino's SPM result.My hearts just shattered when I knew all those results. Feeling so so so stupid bhaiii..fuck. Hergh.. from now on.. I'll stop wishing and start doing. None bitch that could stop me after this. And hey, my Twitter friend..she's really hot chick. 16 same as me. She just tweeted me like.. 'hey, just telling me if you're going'.. going to? AVICII'S concert!!! she just got her tixx. She is so Lucky.How I wish my house is near to Sepang. I'll go to every concert that held there. And how I wish I have A lot of MONEY. Guys, please have sex in my wallet and produce more money and make me happy all day. Ugh, sejak bila dino jadi ceni aah? haha, since Nathan date Ariana kud. Fortunately.. I'm Jay's girl. no.. Mesut's girl.. I mean.. Ramsey's girl..noo szczesny.. I mean monreal.. ok, why there're too many handsome man in this world. Gonna fly to Venus and date an alien..That would be fun..haha...Last wednesday.. me and Ain.. we just soaking wet. Haha.. walking back to school with that weather. Memang tak ahh.. Dengan Hujan lebat.. Shaking to death lol.. we broke the law. Lintas jalan ikut suka,. haha.. and we'd made several videos while walking in the rain.. romatic siakkk. Hahaha.. I just.. I don't wanna be in that situation anymore..nyesal bhaii. Haha,, naib tak demam.Habis basah kasut.. wergh. 


 

OMG!! How cute is LOKI,.. hips don't lie babe (: Well, I'm so happy to know that me.. myself have decided to being active on tumblr again. YEY! But.. don't follow me if you're not a football fan because I love to reblog anything that relate to football/Arsenal.. or football..LOL. And hello to my new tumblr's theme. woohoo.. jakun right here.. haha. Spending several hours editing tumblr. My eyes are tired and you know what.. my spectacles is missing in my house.. haih; Where did I put that thing>? I don't even remember.. huuu T_T So, last Thursday, I brought my net-book to school just in case of "boring" . So, me,Ain and Izzah decided to "lepak" at our class even the teachers had warned us.. sorry guys. We're bad kids. Bad kids doesn't follow the rules. So, yeah.. we watched 'The Conjuring' and I swore it's scariest shit ever. The sound is REAL man.. There's one part where  all of us screamed for 2 seconds because of SPM. Haha. Poyo je kau kita suma,, haha. Actually I'm looking forward to watch Insidious 2.  So yah.. better keep continuing my BM's folio.. babai xxxx

p/s: "Anoboll" is Ain's new toy.. hahaa
PLEASE MISS ME LIKE "ANOBOLL".. HUUUU XOXO

WORD OF MOUTH

Hello (:
I don't know why I love staring at the rains. It makes me feel calm. So hey, for apple users, can you guys please buy word of mouth on Itunes and rate it 5 stars? please.. Please make that album hit the no. 1 in I tune's chart. I don't own any apple's product so.. you know. Kindly help me please.. haha. My parent love Samsung than Apple's product. Idek why : / So, yah. yah yah yah << sawan kejap >> so, today I realized that..  all this whole time, I just keep reminding myself that.. I don't need someone and then I realized that.. the truth is, no one need me :( I mean, there're no one that willing to talk to me. I just being you know.. ALONE and being FRIEND-ZONE! For right now and the rest of my life.. I'll keep myself out from the community. I mean..not at all.. Just being myself. 

<I'm sorry but I've to talk about this> The truth is.. aku menyesal jumpa abang-abang UITM haritu. The brothers only laa..the sisters aku okay ja.. They just make me look stupid.. wait a minutes, I'm stupid already..okay more stupid.. haih. How I wish I can forget every detail things that relate to them. How I wish I can forget their names and looks. O How I wish I'm never go to their places last month. How I wish... haih. Sigh sigh sigh. Erghh, I'm trying to reduce people around me. Only my family,friends and teachers around me and that it. I'm done. ergh.. this growing arms symptoms is killing me. It's so painful. Fortunately, I've Yahoo! to help me and I found the solutions to reduce this motherfuckin pain.. right now.. there's a towel wrapping my left arms and mann.. It's so good.. hot+cold water. pergh, the pain is going away and come back after the towel start cooling.. Can you just go away pain? I hate you.

Anyone has twitter here? same goes here.. You know the most annoying in twitter is.. "UNFOLLOWERS" I mean..you know,, there're some people followed us in twitter and after several days they started unfollow you.. Fortunately we have some websites that could tell us who had unfollow us that day and you know what bitch.. I know who you are...the one who unfollow me.. you just came like..aiyy, followback please..and I do follow you and what happen.. you unfollow me back then.. I mean..aiyy bitch..I'm goin' to unfollow you like forever. Thanks for your commitment. You are just messing with my following numbers. Sorry for that emo stuffs. I can't hold this anymore and guess what.. I become lazy because of you bitch.. lazy to follow back people in twitter. fakoff laaah!!


Oh, just now.. one of my wishlist is completed.. I watched "Ngorat" movie. Awhh, Nas't's character is being a husband who is addicted to game aka psp. Awh..he's so cute and funny.. anyonyonyo..  The last part is the best ..like his wife < in that movie > told his friends that they'll get a nephew.. and Nas-t being so blur and just said.." wait what? emm, that mango trees.. since when it fruits? " lool.. ahahaha.. you know.. nephew is "anak buah" and he thought that "anak buah" is "anak buah mangga"..haha. oh, his name in that movie is Ajo.. ehehe. And he smiled A LOT in that movie. RIP my feeling. I just like.. hugging the tv and said.. can you please be mine? crazy people here.. 

so.. happy new year in Islam today y'all.. ehehe.. moga kita buat amalan yang lebih baik untuk tahun baru ini.. InsyaAllah :) so, yeah.. gonna keep continuing my h/works.. so bubye. :*

SING ME TO SLEEP.. DON'T TRY TO WAKE ME IN THE MORNING.. CAUSE I'LL BE GONE...


SING ME TO SLEEP

Hello (:
Hello November.. 1 Nov.. which means, the UITM's students will get their final exam result. I can't hold this feeling anymore..feeling to be annoying at "crushz" . Feeling like I want to send message at wechat to him.. "kau dapat brapa? okay tak? pass suma? ada yang kena repeat tak? " I just keep that word in my thought..Better shut up than be annoying.. he'll leave you forever if you done that. About final exam result.. my marks is terrible and horrified. Because what? Me and you will have a heart attack when you take a look at my result. Let just forget about that..

So after the exam.. the following weeks.. the teachers decide to organise a "asak minda" program thingy that.. you know, boring. And the bast damn thing is.. Liya and Ain just came only in the first day and the following two days.. they're absent and leave me alone at school with all these people. The first day.. that one IPG gave us some motivation for da next year SPM and addmath's teacher just doing problem solving method which I fell asleep because my brain just tired.On the second day.. we have history and chemistry.. I can't even understand what is the purpose of the activity that had done by the teachers. Chemistry? OMG chemistry is so fun with Mr.Lee.. can't describe how sporting he is. Siap nyanyi lagu Black-takkan terpisah.. haha..Third day.. we have Physics and Math. Idk what to write about what happen on third day.. During math, our group consists of Amir Syazwan,Adam,Tiqah band,Kanami, Najwa,two chinese,Syafiqa and this one girl that I can't remember her name. Boleh laa..takat ada amir cukup lah.. power math.

Oh..last Tuesday.. there's football match between Arsenal and Chelsea aaand Arsenal had been kickout for that cup after loss 0-2 with Chelsea. That match started 3.40 am, I went sleep at 12.30am.. On 2.40 am, someone a.k.a my "crushz" just sent a message. He's trying to wake me up from my beauty sleep. Takut lettew message aku ajak teman nengok bola. K. haha,. Sepanjang game berlangsung tu, tanya pasal no. telefon dia which aku dah ada dalam contact. He seems not care about his life. Bukan nak tanya dari mana dapat no. dia,, haha. herm, I got his no. illegally using this secret source. Feeling that hacker life. Haha, poyo je kau dyno. 

I was so boring last night. So,I just clicked that "people nearby" button on wechat and start searching for some people that can understand me. 'Almost cried because laughing so hard'.. Yang greeting aku suma ..ada repmitZ ..which yang suka taip perkataan macam tak pernah belajar bahasa Melayu. Muka Gay enough. Adaa Syada clone aka "flour face" <terbalikkan> . Look lesbian enough aand to jiwang. Aduh, so yang mana-mana muka boleh tahan, perangai, sejarah pelajaran elok apa suma aku accept la friends. While chatting.. my thought is still the same.' Dia ni tak nak wechat aku ker nak tanya pekabor ker' .. Haha, untill today, they're tonne of people try to add me as friends. I know laa I'm a Joker.People love to talk with me but please, could you stop posting post that make me think that you're gay/lesbian/rempitz? Just be like normal people does.. write in English or proper malay without adding any number or 'z'.. aand, don't type like you are using calculator. Annoying af you know..hergh

The last thing is.. *smile* please follow me on Instagram/Twitter.. I do follow back. Make sure you're not die hard fan of ID. I'll block you. why? Because of that niall's harsh word.. I blocked y'all in my life. Blame him. Make sure he didn't breed in da future. Dear "crushz", stop make me wondering about your feeling towards me.. just please wechat me first.. or can I call that twerk fairy to make all my wish comes true? Twerk fairy? haha.. check 'em on vine apps.Lewls, me,Anis,Farah and Mat Yus had stomach ache while watching all the funny videos in that apps. Make sure you watch it. No regrets. So,before this dyno become more dyno.. lets end this post with thizz..eh, ? me is rempitz gak ehh..haha 


BE MINE PLEASE? YOU HAVE MY HEART.. I WANT IT BACK.PLEASE COME AND GIVE MY HEART BACK IN MY ROOM.. p/s: My room has no exit. 


LEGACY

Hello Kiddos :>
Hey..Hai.. You know what? Final Exam is officially over. YES! YES! LEGACY.. That's the new Nicky Romero's music featuring Krewella. It's so awesome I told you. That picture above is so ME. Hmm.. yeah, my "crush" is gone. I mean he's not dead. He just walked away from my life just like that. Hm, maybe that is the right thing to do. Yeah, just walked away from my life.. leave this joker alone. She doesn't deserve any guy in this world. Remember kiddos.. If the right thing goes wrong..just turn left. SEE? simple kind of life that we all deserve. What happen? I'm not gonna tell this here because it is so OPEN a.k.a public "-- but the only thing that I can tell you is.. he just call me crazy. Yeah, Joker never be smart. They are crazy. Okay. Fine. Just live your life and leave me here. But, someday I've to go to their place too because our project is not ready yet for next year competition. Scare to death baq hangg. Hmm.. anyway. Righ now; my heart feels very empty. and "krik krik"..and so boring. My phone just "krik krik" too. Duh, joker #1 tell me that his place has no internet connection. Alaaa~~ hmm, and hey. I got brand new celebrity crush.. sorry koscielny and Henry.but this guy is always be on top of my heart. Sorry for my bad English here. Naah, act like I have thousand of readers reading this poor blog. He is...


[ INTERNAL SCREAMING ] waaa.. he's dj nas-t. He have 6 pack-abs, fierce face and he's so funny. The important thing is.. he is a DJ. alalalaaa~~ y u so cute. Err.. police, he shouldn't be this hot, Please arrest him and send to my room. One more thing is.. he like to play that sims game.. aww..cute giler~~ But, last night I just reviewing abil's keek and I saw their keek..TOGETHER. Before they're breakup. He is so sweet anyway. Abil just like " do you love me?" and he answered "I love you".. I almost burst into tears. Nasib dah break <ahahaha,, mean gilaaa> I just like scrolling my twitter and saw some people tweet about nas-t being hot.. My thought is like.. I'm gonna stab you million of time if you have crush on him. One more thing is.. "his smile is creepy" ..welppp!! I like his serious and mad face. No wonder he should be a model. Liking somebody that never likes me back is a part of my life routine told ya! Imagine that..  I found nas-t's wechat.. we are chatting together and he asked to meet me.. He liked me and he proposed me. We married and have twins. Ahaa!! IMPOSSIBLE~~ <shontelle's voive> that's how I sleep almost everyday.. Imagine about that then I fell asleep. And do it again tomorrow. Thug life. No wonder people keep telling me that I'm crazy like hell.

#ForeverSingleTakAderBFSelamenyer < amboih hashtag > haha.. HA HA HA.. *facepalm* I wanna start doodling back again..woohooo .. hoo hoo.. haha.. wayar fius otak tercabut satu barang kali. And you know.. Our final exam last week is the worst.. I mean.. dahla buat kat dewan official orang yang jawab SPM & PMR nuh.. aduii, we're not that stupid to cheat in that hall teachers.. two way to cheat in exam is brought notes and 'selit' kat bawah kertas and just go to toilet and googled the question or view the image using smartphone. Which I'm doing that for Chemistry's test but halfway there I'm just like.. Insaf sat then batal niat nak cheat. I shouldn't lie to myself. I've to work hard like others that don't cheat. Next year gonna be big year for me and the pressure keep haunting me.. "hang dapat teruk SPM..say goodbye to Newcastle and ur Architect job".. I have major problem with my addmath and chemistry. Oh why!! Arghh.. come on BRAIN..you can do it..please help me to understand this 2 subjects...

You know..the wanted and linkin park have new album this year.. Yeyy.. but money.. why you always dissapear when I need you.. kemon arr.. erghh, buat bisnes cam liya sakgi baru tau.. tengok tengok mampu beli bmw X5 apa.. HA HA HA.. berangan jer tawu.. blah arr dyno..Ur crazy. so..toddles:) ehee

HAA.. THANKS FOR CALLING ME CRAZY. I'LL KEEP HAUNTING YOU WITH MY CRAZY THOUGHTS.




SMILER.

Hello :)
It's hard you know.. Typing something on the keyboard while your friend is whatsapping you is hard. Can't really focus right now.It's gonna be a really long post because my blogging mood is on. Haha lewls. First of all.. being 16 is hard. And within 3 more months. This girl gonna be in form 5 which is senior and final year. I'm not really ready at all I mean I'M NOT READY !!! This all SPM thingy. Yeah.. this and next weak I'm having final exam which makes me so depress. The only thing that stuck in my head since last week is.. I wanna redo all of this. After complete that P.Islam paper I just realised that me is too dumb. Can't memorize anything. How I'm supposed to take SPM next year with me like this. "cepatlah habis final exam..aku nak mula balik baca..nak enjoy last freedom aku sebelum next year punya sekolah start". I'm already planned my activities during this school break. One of 'em is 'REVISION' .. Next year,.. be more hardworking, leave your laziness at home, stop making troubles with some kind of people and so on. 

Mission no.1 is getting Straight A+ in SPM 2014. Yess..gonna make sure that year is my legendary year. Dear Newcastle University... please wait for me and Ain there okay babe? 41k /month.. uuuu.. That's why it is worth to take engineering course that can promise you brighter future. Yesterday, while Ain and me waiting for our parent to fetch us.. we'd just created some IMAGINATIONS .. It's all about us.. " Aku nak beli BMW X6,hummer ka.. aku nak jadi parent paling sporting kat anak aku nanti" .. lewls.. It's so funny because the way we had the conservations is like we have already work as engineers and have kids. Kita hanya mampu rancang and plan jaa kan.. yang lain Allah SWT tentukan.. yang tuu memang konfem tak boleh lawan. All I want when I get married is.. good relationship and my utimate dream is having TRIPLET!! kk..just leave that thing because having triplet is almost impossible. Tak salah kan berangan :P dear aliens: please don't judge me for this. And then we saw this 2 not very hot guys came out from that Mercedes's car and they're just like. they're thinking that they are fabulous riding Mercedes's car. Dengan rambut paku berkarat..lewls .. Some people are weird..

Next week..let me see.. Sej and Physics.. Addmath and Math.. those are killers subject.. Never pass in addmath since we first met.. I think we should date after this whole final exam is done.. right Addmath? you'll be nice to me next year. Promise me naah?? Ok,,this crazy dyno just talking with herself like an idiot..Who's care.. I'm a Joker..No one can beat me unless you're Mr. Paris.. Next story is about "oi".. yep..actually, I'm planning not to like him so much to avoid the ultimate broken hearted.. Trying = dying. Dyno..just make sure your big feet never pass the "melampau" line.. just stay on the line and never crossed it.. Maybe we just don't know it yet whether our crush already have their own crush or someone that they like. And we are just another heart broken girl.. hadoii.. mood apa pulak serang aku time pukul 6 pm cenggini..

Last word.. cepatlah habis exam aku nak start lukis and buat doodles balik nii.. eyy tolong bagi soalan berjenis sikit boleh tak dear teacherssss?? I'm begging you like forever but you didn't listen to us. Haih =.= Tuhan Tolong ~~~~ haha.. gonna leave now.. gaya tak macam panjang pon post aku..kk babai..

DON'T SHOW OUR SADNESS IN PUBLIC.. JUST SMILE AND PRETEND THAT YOU NEVER HAD ANY PROBLEMS IN YOUR LIFE.


MISSING YOU.

Hello :)
For the hundredth time.. I'm breaking my promises.. AGAIN! lewls.. am such a dummy. How? ha ha ha, the day after I post that last post in this blog. I tried to message him. I sent "sorry" and 'knock knock' < my message's ringtone> "'meow' sent an audio message" . I thought that every girls that get this type of message must be super duper happy meh. Audio kud..leh replay over and over unless you delete it. Fell like millions of butterflies flew in my stomach. And I was like.. nak dengar ker tak nak.. Tak mau sakit hati lagii laa katakan. The moment when I pressed that audio message.. aand.. alalalalalaa cute nyeww..k.. ter'over' pulak. Dengan slang Perak+KL. haha.. I think he was in the good mood I guess because I can fell that in his "magical" voice. Can't describe how happy I am at that time. haha.. Dyno is happy back again. weehuu.. and that ultimate joker just being 'busybody' ja.. Asking me 'macam-macam'. Adoii, suka buli aku laah. Nak balas dendam ler tu sebab aku pernah merajuk ngan dia dalam kelas math. Salah dia arr, aku tanya.. dia pi layan budak-budak lain. Revenge is sweet. Hahaha

Missing you.. yep.. I'm missing my UITM's sisters and brothers. Sembreak laa katakan. Hhuhu..nak sembang kat wechat macam tak ada topik jaa. I miss the moment when we're just like.."lepak dulu.." while the other groups just "pulun" dicsussing their future project.Lulz.. Teasing liya just because she has bf. Hahaha. Miss all the moment that we'd experienced before. And ain? Missing that less handsome kwang so laah. haha.. Yang hensem "meow" aku.. I think that I should change this "meow" to another word because that word just remind me at kimi. Haha.. kaki bash orang jaa keja. how abaout "sakai"? kesian pulak.. "oi" laah.. because he just love that phare so much.. "cik oi.." ..haha. 

Sebelum terlambat..Selamat Hari Raya Eid-Adha.. weuu..lepak kat rumah tok ja la. Aand I hate that. When all my lil cousins came. Chaos happen. Dah la hyper..Ya Allah.. I can't fit with them because am the only one who age 10+ years.. haih..tensyennya. Dengan tak der internet.. can you feel me. Aand another shock moment when I just know that I've another 2 niece.. oh God.. since when my aunty got pregnant? I don't see any baby bumps.. Adoii.. am not peka with keadaan sekeliling. Oh.. and tomorrow is school + exam days.. yey.. -.- sejarah paper 3 and agama.. wish me luck guys.. 

I CAN'T STOP REPLAYING YOUR VOICE MESSAGE..WEUU


xBooksAndCoffex


Hello peeps. Welcome new header,new bio and everything. My status right now? DEPRESSED, HATE MYSELF, SERABUT AND ETC. I just don't know how can I became like this.. Maybe last night. I'm completely breakdown. Broken. Hurt. And realize.. I'm so fcking annoying much. Being annoying to my friends, 'meow',mr.Joker and everyone. Hazwan, kakak2 and abang2 UITM,teachers,parent,lil bro. My idol. EVERYONE!! I hate last nigh.. I hate it I hate it.. *wipe tears* ..thanks 'meow' for that fcking video message. You made me realize about everything that relate to my life. Yes.. I have friends that happy with their lives and having some kind of 'sporting' parent. Me? I have THE MOST annoying parent on earth. They didn't gave me permission to go out..socialize with other friends, holding phone is considered I'm using facebook. About facebook.. I'm already delete my account because I..was so 'tertekan' when my mom always 'bising' at me like forever.. I'm never be perfect in front of her eyes. I'm usually shut my mouth when I'm at home because my life is done there. That's why I'm hyper at school like trolling ain, made fun of liya,syahirah and izzah because.. I can't do that at home. I'm alone. There're just me,books and internet. I have such a pathetic life told ya. Last night, that 'meow' just added another 'pathetic thing' in my life..

I've lost motivation to do anything. The feeling of emptiness and feeling that barely anyone is there for you is killing me in the inside. The feeling that no one understand you anymore. My future seems.. breaking apart. Who am I right?? To have feeling towards my gender is the WORST things I'd ever done. Yeah.. who wants me right? This 'pathetic' girl that never pass in addmath, such a MEAN girl, always wanting people that she never get,spend her whole life to get some attention from community. That's me. Seems God never give me any chance to get the feeling of being love by someone.   

 What's my plan after this? SPM. yeah, get straight A, continue study, fly to England, make my dreams come true and be an Architect. That's it// getting marry and get kids? HA HA HA. Forever alone camni nak kahwin. You mean..marry with person or something. If person.. tak der calonlahhh. so.. babai 'meow'. I'll never bothering you anymore. So keep your thug life ahead. And remember.. you just lost this awesome, crazy, anti-jealousy, TWFanmily , football fanatic, A cute Gunner girl. One day, I'll be miss by you and you'll realize that you just lost me. I'll be always be a #2 Joker in history of mankind and remember.. tanjung dawai ada tanjung and dawai. Remember!! Next year.. let the game change because that is my SENIOR YEAR. RULE CHANGE. New 'DEANNAAAA' is heading and will lead this whole thing. More awesome, annoying and even moreee EXCELLENT. hahahahahahaha.. and remember.. I'll be Henry Sturges cool type.


THE GAME HAVE CHANGE AND NO BITCH COULD STOP ME ANYMORE.


Nyeep nyeep

Hello :")

First of all.. last Thursday's chemistry exam is SUCK! gaya dah ada nak fail tu. Me tinggal banyak kud nohh soalan, dah la final exam, wanna cry T_T tapi.. nasib baik aku duk kelas Sains Teknikal. The 'worries' of takut turun kelas tak ada in mah mind right now. Wohooo, fail tera mana pun duk klas Harmonikan jugak dengan 'crazy' classmates. Wehee. This whole and next week = FINAL EXAM. I'm so depress as fuck right now. Kecewa dengan diri sendiri you know "-.- Baru nak menyesal lulz. Keep the promise. Don't cheating. Markah haram!! haha. Aku rasa kalau aku fail banyak pun aku still watlek watpis sajaa, tahun depan baru kita tunjuk taring kita yang berkilat nii. Form 4 ni tak show off sangat lah.. *sembang tak penah jatuh*

"Awatlah aku tak struggle dari awal tahun dah tau diri tu 'stupid' bebeno"
THISSS!! deep bebeno

Untunglah kiddo kiddo aku semua happy. Liya,Ain,Syahirah semualah.. semua happy and there's me. Yup.. only me. I use to be single all the time. Siapalahh lelaki bertuah yang mau kat aku yang gilaa gian punya orang. About that 'meow' man.. aha!! so, yes. He's having sembreak right now which mean dia tengah holiday kat kampung kesayangan dia laah. Almost 2 weeks he never replied my wechat. whtdfuq is that? haha, sakit hati nohh. Then, this 'miracle' morning.. he. sent. me. audio. message. awuuuu!! what does the fox say? ring ding ding ding ding..lulz. 6.05am nohh dia hantaq. terus mood naik,teehee, happynya itew!! -facepalm-  tapi serious aa aku happy. ngehee..but.. last night before this happen. Aku rasa cam nak hempuk pala ngan tong gas kud. Aku baca kawan dia tweet.. aand ada nama sorang 'mystery' girl dia mention and I'm just like.. please no please... tak keruan dah aku u know!! Aku dah reka dah post 'pasrah' gilaa nak publish kat blog. Plan to hancur lepas dia hantar voice tuu.. AAAaaa wish goodluck sampai 4 kali nohh.. puas ko deanna?? ahahaha.. macam ter'over' plak aku ni '-- 

Dah dah..dah habis dah cerita tadi tuu..lagha nii semua..tuntasnya, marilah kita sama-sama ke jalan yang lurus dan benar lagi suci. sorry, mood exam still available, entah biler nak invisiblenyaa aku tak tau.. eyy,wanna talk about yesterday. Aku bangun kul 2 pagi sebab nak study kimia sebab dah tau aku otak lembab dan tak boleh terima kimia.. then study ler kan sampai 4.30am.. Nak dijadikan cerita.. gua terbangun kul 7.30am. I mean, bukan aku sajaa, satu family tho. Adoii, sampai sekolah kul 8 and there's me.. still jalan and buat tak tau even peksa dah start. Ain tanya pasal apa aku mai lewat. Aku kan joker kebangsaan, aku pun jawablah aku tak jumpa sekolah. #LawakHambar tapi ain tetap angkat middle finger kat aku..ahaha balik sekolah paa lagi.. kena perli ngan mak aku lewls. Rasa nak nyorok bwah meja pun ada.

Cepatlaa habis exam and cuti panjang.. aku nak lepak and ikat semula 'bond' aku dengan kawan sekolah rendah aku. Duk buat sedeyh pulak kata aku dermarian depa kolarian. ahaha.. rancak doh sembang ngan depa even sembang pasal masalah negara depa ja. Tapi lagi rancak kalau ada ain ngan liya. wuu (peace) Aku dah plan siap listkan lagii list what to do untuk cuti nii.. haha, nanti aku upload ehh. *sembang cam ada reader jaa blog nii* oh and one more thing, I think I need a macbook asap. Tak sedap scroll tumblr pakai netbook ni. adohoii, dengan loading lambat. And maybe a new guy. ok bye, lools. Me myself never learn any 'pengajaran' daripada kisah sebelum ni. Haha..

Oh and.. tahun depan aku tak mau bodoh dah. Stupid pun tak mau. Crazy tuu nak ada lagi la. Bukan deanna la kalau tak gila sehari. Actually kat rumah aku duk diam ja. Bukan ada kawan.. nak cakap ngan adik aku. Buat pecah pala ja eyy. Can I just go to England and further my study dalam bidang engineering?? Gilaa.. craving for that job like forever. Aku still lost kut. Form 4 ni buat hidup aku celaru bagai nak rak ja. Nak jadi budak form 1 balik..noob and nerd jaa. No juniors and hello cute male seniors. hakshaks :)) gatai nak mampos kata kauu.. 

lack of idea right now..sejarah jom.. lai lai :))


HOW LONG WILL I LOVE YOU? AS LONG AS THE STARS ABOVE YOU :)

ALIALIJANDRO

Olla peeps :)
Remember the UITM's post? Okay okay..actually.. during that day, I mean, not just THAT day,before that day..The first time when they came to our school, I saw this one guy and boom..my heart just racing inside me..his smile,laugh.. gaah!! * smiling * During the actual competition, -acececey- he came to my group and he just..'perlekeh produk kiteorang' ..haih -_- ..but the best damn thing is.. The gap between me and him is way too damn close..wooahh.. I glanced at his shirt and it wrote -Z...- and then I'd to walk to Ain.. After that day.. I'm struggling to know his name,twitter or whatever that relate to him.. I asked Ain about him and with full confidence she said..his name is nazri but..he's already engage with someone else..My heart literally like.. 'BOOM'..frust laa kejap.. When I back home..I just checked Ain's following and.. that 'nyanyuk' girl just gave me the name of wrong person.. and suddenly I just realized that..I still got the CHANCE.. *wipe tears*

After wasting some minutes checking Ain's following....I FOUND IT..his acc Twitter..wooooowoooooo.. and you guys know..that guy just made my day even more BEAUTIFUL when he's mentioning me in Twitter about Arsenal..He's a Gunner too..alaalaaa..* blushing bhaii*  That excitement didn't end in that day..I still excited ..till now..never faded :) so Ain just asked me to asked him about his wechat's id.. I'm so nervous to ask him..I didn't why :( We're in library on that time..Ain just took my phone and start typing and sent to him on twitter.. I'm just like..Ainn.. 'rasa macam nampak sangat terhegeh hegehnyaa' ..but.. it's not bad at all when he respond to my mention..he just said to me to search that name in wechat and DANG.. I found it..


That's so me.. *facepalm* then I sent him some message on wechat..aannd..he replied it..yehooooo...and yesterday..he sent me a tonne and tonne voice message..aww..his cute lil voice..hehehehehe..aand good thing is...psst..he's single..but he's mine,,I already booked him guys.. nyenyenye..hahahahahahaa..just kidding..today he has final exam..goodluck goodluck mann..Do your best *thumbs up* 

And now..It's all about me..haih..final exam is coming in two weeks..The Wanted performed at Kuala Lumpur for Arthur's day yesterday and I can't go..sad dyno is sad :(((( final exam?? addmath still killer subject for me.. haih..Time to work hard and smart kiddo..gotta go..dyno have to go..bye bye bye :))


OH GOD..HOW I WISH HE COULD BE MINE.. I WANT HIM SO BAD :(: 



'QUADRA PHEONIX'

Heyyo (:
Yesterday,we've UITM'S program..sambung yang haritu..Me.Anis,Ain,Liya,Izzah,Syahirah and Acap.kami satu group.. 'Quadra Pheonix'..woot woot..kami buat projek paling simple mampus hah kira..kami buat speaker ja (: so this is our group photo including our fasi (:


Find me if you can :p haha xx 7.40am++ tuu kami naik bas..kami duk bas keempat a.k.a bas paling last la kiranya. Steady jaa duk dalam bas tuu sebab tak dak ramai orang sangat :) Semua orang bawak projek masing masing ..group kami ja rilek sebab projek kami dah deliver kat kakak UITM tuu sehari lebih awai..woot woot *peace* Sampai situ.kami kena buat aerobik cekk oii..adohoii,yang suka sajiss aku pi menari aerobik -_- pastu ada acara perasmian paa tah..yang penting,kami hangat duk blakang tuu..matahari duk ada jaa duk menyinari muka aku,ain,liya and etc. Berpeluh woii >.< sebab terlampau bosan sangat dengaq orang kat depan tuu duk cakap apa..Ain main laa ngan fon dia. Bukak wechat yang 'search nearby' tuu..then Ain terjumpa wechat abang Syamil..haha xx dengan rayban,baju hitam dia.. Airel Zafrel kud nohhh..

Habis perasmian tuu,semua orang kena prepare meja nak show produk yang kami buat tuu..our 'bertuah' speaker there..haha..meja orang lain penuh gilaa..mai tang meja kami.. kosong jaa..ada laptop, kertas, speaker ngan fon..yang tuu ja la..haha xx simple mampus kud dari otang lain..nanti ada laa pensyarah uitm/ cikgu sekolah sendiri mai tengok projek tuu and nilai 'em ..acah acah laa sikit demo letak fon dalam speaker tuu nak tunjuk benda tuu 'work' macam mana..lama gak laa tunggu kat situ then explain..kayh..bukan aku yang explain..just berdiri tunjuk muka jaa..yang explain liya,anis ngan kakak tuu ja..mengantuk gak laa..ehem, di situ jugak laa ain bertemu kuang coo dia..jodoh laa katakan..dah depa umum acara tuu dah habis.. kakak tuu mintak laa tangkap gambar satu kumpulan..habis jaa tangkap gambar.. abg amy yang gedik tuu kluar dewan sambil pegang tngan sorang abg lagi tuu..kami pakat jerit swag swag swag..haha ;) 

12.45pm++ tuu,liya mintak kat kakak tuu nak pi bilik kakak dia..so lepas madam bagi greenlight..kami paa lagii.. explore the uitm laah.. orang lain pakat tengok jaa kami pi mana..rasa 'special' pulaks..poyooo jaa aku.lama gak laa kena jalan,siap jumpa clone batu caves lagi a.k.a tangga yang banyak..lenguh kaki baq hang.. then duk kat bilik tuu..rehat,basuh muka then sembahnyang sat pastu 2.15pm kami gerak gi padang hoki.

Aku ngan Anis jalan laju jaa ikut kakak depan tuu..yang lain tuu, jalan lenggang kangkung kat blakang. then, ada dengar orang cakap..'kiri kanan kiri...' k..ada orang yang tengah kawad kat situ. Then,orang yang kawad tuu ikut jalan sama ikut jalan yang kami guna..depa kat blakang tuu cam kena ligan ngan abg kawad tuu..haa jalan lambat lagii -_____- lepas sampai kat padang hoki tuu, lepas bagi group apa semua..then tibalah MASA!! sukaneka yaww..kami group 12.. First game tuu, game kena jawab then tanya soalan selang seli..guess what..group kami menang.. 2-0 haha..dendanya? kena conteng muka.. aku conteng muka azri >.< suruh aku buat stripe sangat..hambikk ko




Syok gila conteng muka orang :B raqib,aniq,afif ngan azri duk buat muka tak puas hatii looll..spaa suruh kalah..waktu game tuu,dah laa tanya soalan tak muhasabah..'..bila nak kahwin','no.telefon apa..' haha xx at last hampa kalah gak..oooo game kedua, kepit belon..adoii,kakak kat depan tuu jalan laju sngat bhaii.. haha, game ketiga, bwk bola pingpong sambil kepit belon..nasib laa I tak masuk..haha..dyno kecohh. lepastu..kami kena pi checkpoint ketiga..kayh,yang tadi checkpoint kedua, kali nii punya game, kena jalan itik sambil hold ayar dalam straw..adohoii,nasib turn aku ngan anis tak sempat..woot woot..game kedua,jawab soalan..kalau salah kena sembur air..madam tuu mau boleh sembur..lencun doowh.. abg amy punya pasal laa saja jawab salah.. game last tuu memang kontrovesionall skit..game dodgeball..at last..aku orang last survive..vbasvcjubwb budak cina kelas bio tuu sampai kata shit kat aku -_- sorry laa dik..akak terer sikit game nii..at last mak cik nii kalah..yey -_- main game nii nak enjoy jaa hakikatnyaa.. 

game untuk checkpoint frist.yakni last..memang paling hell gilaa..game first, boys kena pusing 7 kali while girls 5 kali..then kena lari cari coklat yang ada dalam tepung pastu gigit coklat tuu..habis resdung gua muka kena tepung..habis laa.. terpaksa makan tepung yang stuck dalam mulut..ewww then abg amy ambik tepung letak dalam pinggan plastuk then tabur kat orang..ain paling teruk kiraaa..habis putih tudung yang hitam.. urghh then ada sorang nii ..sapa tah baling tepung tempias kena madam nii..I mean..kena ciput jaa..pastu abg amy tempik.. 'woii,sapa baling tepung kena Beyonce aku nii!!' lool XD after that, game dah habis..yang tinggal aktiviti buli-membuli.. pakat semua baling tepung..first time aku main benda alah tepung nii..haha , dyno poyooo ..then nampak mat yus isi ayaq dalam baldi..pastu ajak kawan dia bawak baldi tuu simbah kat kakak tuu..haha..you're so mean guyss :3 yang kami apa lagii..gossip aa kira..liya tunjuk gambar cik abg misai sekshi dia laa..haha,semua pakat puji henshem haha XD ain?kena kucai ngan kuang coo..haa, dah laa keding..ho ho.. me? kena kucai ngan kimi..bvxuhdevcuevw aku just cakap nak yang berjambang..bukan yang ada jambang teruk camtu -__- tolong tolong.. then kakak tuu panggil abang kuang coo tuu tangkap gambar group kami..haha ..ain blushing alert!! haha..mampuh muu ain.kahkahkah

Finally tarik tali time..UITM menang.. 2-1..bob gaya tak tahan dah tarik tali tuu..wakakaka. and now..acara penyampaian hadiah..k..group kami dapat saguhati jaa sukaneka..dan buat kenduri sat makan tengah-tengah padang tuu..sambil kakak kakak tuu kucai aku ngan kimi..then depa nak umum pemenang projek..lepas depa umum tempat ketiga..muka masing masing kira cam give up dah kira..and suddenly.. '.....QUADRA PHEONIX!' say whaat?? kami dapat tenpat kedua? muka masing masing blurr..aku nii tak pekak kaa? haha lool..everyone just like..alhamdulillah.. even projek speaker bertuah kami simple tahap dari geng lain..kami menang whaat..winner dia harith kud noh..perghh~~~ yang pentingyaa..top 5 semua ada 4H's member..bangga woo.. lepas abg tuu berenti cakap jaa... BALLOON WATER FIGHT!! pakat lari merata..orang kat balakng tuu duk baling belon air.. kami? dan lagi tangkap gambar..hispter tahap beb..haha rasa tak mau balik jaa..rinduu xx lepas nii..prepare for international zone..woot woot..aku sent semua gambar kait Paiq and guess what..dia merajuk!! haha,,dia kata' send ahh lagi gambar..tunjuk tunjuk,' ahaha xx mental breakdown paa dia nii ??haha

got to go..bye fellas ~.~ *ada typo skit..abaikan*


QUADRA PHEONIX <3